I'll put this in Filipino...

Hindi ko lang maunawaan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Yong tipong me mga dahilan para magdiwang, pero di mo feel makipagdiwang. Panahon ng 13th month pay at mga kasiyahan bago magpasko, pero tila may kulang.

Di lang pala sa bonuses, sweldo at mga regalo magiging masaya, o baka naman umedad na ako kaya kung ano ano na pumapasok sa kokote ko.

Ang hirap ipinpoint kung san nanggagaling itong nararamdaman ko ngayon. Di ko alam kung dahil 1-5 ang standing ng Lakers matapos makuha si Dwight Howard at inakalang tapos na ang season sa Nobyembre pa lang, pero nadapa o nauntog sa katotohanang di ganon kadali ang tagumpay. Dahil ba sa mga galit sa Lakers na mga kakilala sa Facebook na patuloy na lumalait at nagtatawa sa kabiguan ng pinakapaboritong koponan ko simula ng bata pa ako (tulad ng Ginebra, na sa kasamaang palad ay nandito rin sa ganitong kondisyon)? Asar-talo ba ako, dahil sa pambubulahaw ng mga tao habang ninanamnam ko ang kasawian ng mapagtalo talo. (E kung titingnan, gumaganti lang naman sila nun panahon na nilalait ko yun idol nilang mukang ewan... :P, di dapat ako mapikon)

Historically, di naman ako pikon na tao mula nun bata ako. Sa totoo lang ay hindi yata ako naasar o napikon kapag sinasabihang mataba o baboy o elepante o balyena. Natatawa pa nga ako pag hinahampas ng barker sa terminal ng dyip yun parte ng likuran ng kinauupuan ko, para lamang ipaalam sa akin na "siyaman yan e, ang laki kasi nito".

Di ko alam kung dahil kulang pa ako ng 2 series sa Return of Marvel Legends, o dahil binenta ko (dahil sa pangangailangan) 'yong isa kong series ng Marvel Universe. O dahil wala pa akong Dreadwing at Megatron sa Transformers Prime. Di ko din alam kung dahil wala ako kahit isang Kobe 7.

Teka puro material na bagay ang pinagsasabi ko. Ano pa nga ba ang kulang? Baka naman may toyo lang ako ngayong araw na ito, which is highly unlikely, dahil di naman ako sinanay ng tatay kong magpakatoyo. Palo ang abot ko pag sinusubukan ko magtoyo, kaya kinalimutan ko na ang magtoyo. Di ko nga lang sure, kung bakit di napigilan ng tatay ko ang pagmamantika ko, gayung nasuheto naman nya ang pagtotoyo ko. (Hirit ng desperadong tumawa, sa gitna ng di maunawaang pakiramdam)

Lunch break na pala, di ko napansin. Di rin napansin ng mga usual kong kasama na di nila ako kasabay. Nalimutan pala ako ng mga taong yayain maglunch. Dahil ba gusto nila akong magdyeta, kaya ginagawa nila sa akin ito? Nagkakamali sila, dahil tsumibog ako ng konti bago ko nagsimula ng blog na ito. HA!!!

Since lunch break naman, tuloy ko na lang ang pagboblog...

Di kaya dahil may kakatwang tao na nakigamit ng cube namin ngayon kaya gnaito ang pakiramdam ko. Dahil inakala kong banyaga itong nasa likod ko, ay kinausap ko sya ng ingles, sumasagot naman ng ingles. Pero me kausap sa telepono ay nagtatagalog naman pala? Napahiya ba ako dahil pinili kong mag-ingles sa panahong di naman pala kailangan? Di bale, hanggang alas-4 lang naman ako magtitiis.

Dahil kaya naiwan ko ang payong na bigay ng honey ko sa van? Na wala akong way para macontact si kuya driver, para makuha ko ang payong ko uli. Bad trip! yun nga kaya? O dahil ang daming nakikisabay sa shuttle namin na hindi naman nakalista, na nakuha pang magpahintay? Iyon kaya?

O baka naman dahil sa kailangan ko na ng bagong working environment? Na dapat ibahin ko na ang sitwasyon ko? Dapat bang kaibiganin ko nang muli si LINA?

Kakaiba kasi ang relasyon namin ni LINA. Pag masaya ako sa trabaho, di ko sya pinapansin. Pero pag hindi, tulad ngayon, parang pakipot naman si LINA. Kakaiba ang relasyon namin, on and off. Pero mabait din si LINA kahit papano. Di nya ako iniiwan, yun nga lang, me panahong parang tamad na tamad sya na ibigay yung hinahanap mo. Pano ba dapat alagaan si LINA? Me mungkahi ba kayo?

12:45 na pala. Sabi ko hanggang 1pm lang ako magblog, dahil magtrabaho na ako uli. Gusto ko pa sanang iblog itong sunod kong gagawin, kaso mahirap namang idetalye sa panulat. Kaya iwan ko muna ito... hanggang sa susunod na lang... iwan ko muna ito... kahit mahirap... kahit malungkot... balik muna ako sa realidad, realidad na dahilan maaari ng kalungkutan. Sayang, realidad lang mayroon ako, wala nang iba...

We cry for a person...

...if we see them hurt, if we see them suffer, if we see people trying to survive and hang on...

Last Saturday evening, I realized how much important life is ... even if that life was never able to really live. I cried for my niece, Margaux Asenath, even if she was never able to touch my hand, I know that she touched my life.


So Masie, I know you are in better hands now. I love you my niece... Please help mommy get by, please tell God to heal her from her physical and emotional wounds she is trying to recover from right now. Please ask Him, like all of us are asking too, that she stabilizes and recovers soon.

I know you left us by a plan, by a purpose. I just wanted to tell you, "I love you Masie". Uncle was not able to see you placed at your resting place. Mommy needs me by her side, I know you will understand.

Bye little Masie... I will miss you. Sorry if I never tried to hear you inside mommy's womb, did not feel your kicks inside mommy's tummy. I saw your angelic face that is important. You will always be an angel for all of us.

I love you Baby Masie...

My "Newbie Collectors" Rant

I read somewhere in one of the Facebook toy collectors group how "older collectors" can be rude in treating younger/newer ones, and here is my response:

Hey rookie! Did you ask something about a similar thing to yourself? Why are you treated that way? Don't you know that even in Physics, our teachers taught us that every action, there is always an equivalent reaction? Or you are maybe skipping school too much to even heard of that?

Didn't your WWE taught you "to know your role, and shut your mouth"? Or can't you just listen more to your John Cena and find a way so we CAN'T SEE your posts?

Yes, the way you post is one big reason why some of us "OLDER" folks seem be "rude" at you. Let me summarize some of the reasons why your claim of disrespect happens...

1. Your post itself is either directly disrespectful (e.g. "I want this toy, point me where I can get it." Seems the word "please" was not taught by your parents, kiddo!) or your spelling and, grammatically and logically incorrect posts disrespect many of the older folks' intellect.

2. You think of the word collecting as equivalent to cash.

3. You are too lazy to browse rules before posting.

4. Your jejemonish way of posting makes you really look stupid.

5. Your spelling and grammar don't help either.

6. You post your "for sale" items where in many of your items can easily pass us trash. Quit giving me the cliche "one man's trash can be other man's gold" for crying out loud, unless you have a plastic recycling machine at your house, that won't pass here, newbs.

7. You think that the words "UP" and "BUMP" are valid responses to inquiries.

8. You respond to posts with prices labelled already with "LAST PRICE?", "If it is priced lower, I will get it.", "Please reserve to me until end of time, err... this month." and the most irritating post: "Ganda nito, kaso di kaya ng budget (This one's very good, but I can't afford it.) Kiddo, remember the poster posted his thread as for sale, not for appreciation. If you can't afford it, have the control to stop typing and posts away (in this case, FB's "enter-post" capability is not delivering good result, it encourages more people to post first, and never think back of their posts ever!).

9. In a "What's out locally?" thread, you post "Where can I find...?" SMH!

10. You feel you are being disrespected every time someone posts a correction or something really informative about your wrong information. Inferiority complex? Loser mentality? Whatever. Friendly advice, study, build your confidence, eat brain foods. It will help, believe me.

I Blame It All on Pacman...

First and foremost, let me give credit where credit is due, my good ol' tropa Brian V for sharing their PPV via Skype. Thanks a lot! (With the recent "delayed promise", I was not able to purchase the PPV channel for the bout. Of course, I am just making an excuse for not wanting to spend even a dime for a boxing match. Well, this blog is all about excuses. Excuses that I can find on how majority of Pinoys handled this Pacquiao "Loss")

How can I blame Manny Pacquiao, let me count the ways...

I blame Manny for putting up phenomenal fights before this.

I blame the "Pambansang Kamao" for giving world-class fighters the beating of their lives. For giving us, Flipinos, the perfection in a boxing glove. For making us witness the fastest punches in the planet, with the stingiest left hand in all of boxing. I blame PACMAN for showing us that one does not need a power pellet to bust out "ghost monsters".

I blame him for opening up wounds after wounds of countless warriors inside the squared circle, that led our countrymen believe and lean back on comfort after seeing domination after domination of challengers and oppositions.

I blame Pacman, for growing his hair long that every shot he ducks, his hair flies off, as if hit hard. I blame him for making Marquez land majority of shots to his gloves and elbows.

I blame you for letting this fight go the distance, for leaving some of our fellow Pinoys, who bought cinema tickets to see you dominate your arch-nemesis, disappointed.

I blame the Fighting Pride of the Philippines for not ducking Marquez, for not avoiding this third bout. I blame him for retaining Freddie Roach as a trainer. I blame him for not taking in substance (other than urine, which is Marquez' trademark) to enhance his performance.

Yes Manny. YOU are to be blamed for making this nation think you are Superman. That you made them forget that even Superman has his Kryptonite.

After this "escape" of a win, I blame you for waking up the fighting spirit of the biggest ego in all of boxinglandia, the bravest of all the fighters of this age, Floyd Mayweather Jr. He had destroyed your Kryptonite before you, and "you can't even land a devastating shot" on JuanMa Marquez (those cuts and swelling on JuanMa's face are just prostethics, Manny is weak, his punches cannot do that anymore). How could you let that happen?

I can think of many other things to blame you for, it is just almost midnight, and I can think straight no more... AND I BLAME YOU TOO FOR THAT!

ADDENDUM...

Pacquiao = 578 punches connecting 176
Marquez= 436 punches connecting 138

JABS
Pacquiao = 304 jabs connecting 59
Marquez = 182 jabs connecting 38.

POWER PUNCHES
Pacquiao = 274 power punches connecting 117
Marquez = 254 power punches connecting 100

This Line Surely Reveals My Age...

Well, while toy hunting during the last few days of my stay in the US, I bumped into these two figures (Sgt Stalker and an Iron Grenadier) from the 30th Anniversary line of one of my favorite toys in the 80s and early 90s, G.I. Joe. It was the "Real American Hero" line back in those days. I lost all of my vintage Joes, through over playing and my youngest sister's wrecklessness. Anyway, I am just glad that the line is alive and kickin'.

I started "re-collecting" the line via the Sigma 6 8inch line, and shortly there after, the 25th Anniversary line. After the 25th Anniv line, they issued out a general non-anniversary themed lines, then the movie Rise of Cobra line came out. As a continuity line, Pursuit of Cobra came out (I got some figures from this line too, most of the earlier lines I sold, but thanks to my good ol' tropa Brian V., I got most of the earlier line figures).

I just can't believe it's 5 years already after the 25th Anniversary line. I am really growing old... LOLz!

Sgt Stalker and Iron Grenadier. I got these 2 babies from Target Newpark Mall in Newark, California. I was not planning to start the line. I actually skipped, a Hazard Viper and bunch of Skystrikers and VAMPs along the way. So the itch for the Anniversary figures grew on me...

Thanks to Greattoys shop in Festival Mall and their branch-wide sale, i was able to continue and complete wave 1 of the 30th Anniversary Joes...

I did mention about the Greattoys shop sale right? Yeah, and most of my current on-hand in Manila was from their sale except Jungle Viper and Snake Eyes/Timber. I have all of my other POCs and wave 2 30th Anniversary/Renegades line in-transit from California. I can't wait for them too...

Sorry for the crappy picture below, I was lazy again to crop the other non-POC items...

There is no other fitting end-statement for my blog but this...

YOOOOOOOOO JOE!

Hello Blogworld!

It's been a while... After visiting San Diego, my schedule had either beem busy, or I am just being lazy like a big bellied fat guy (hey, that was me!).

Just arrived yesterday morning, after >12 hours flight back to Manila. Still feeling sleepy. But here I am in the office, blogging, errr, yeah, blogging after a few sets of reports. Still feeling the fatigue from the trip, and the stress seeing my Sentinel box somehow received some damage in transit. One little semi-hole in the other side of the Joe Quesada box art. Grrrrr!!! It is small, but I think it is noticeable. And yeah I broke the box handle too. Grrrr! Anyway, should not be a biggy for some people, but it sure bothers me. I will try to get some pictures later.

Oh, looking at the brighter side of things, I got home to my mom and sisters, and they missed me!!! LOLz! Morcon and Leche Flan welcomed me, and my tita's Bistek Tagalog and Pochero a few hours after the Morcon and Leche Flan. Oh Yeah!!!

OOOH! It's 9:17PM, I will be outta here in no time... 43 minutes more...

A Day Before San Diego...

After almost 3 years of trying to visit my good ol' "tropa" (since Kindergarten, still going strong), Brian Andrus V. Villanueva, it will culminate tonight! YEAH! SAN DIEGO, GET READY FOR SOME MOLYBDENUM/XACRED SOULZ (still remember this Bree or you buried it in the pits of darkness?), reunion!!! LOLz!